Tyler the Creator, Kylie, Taco, & Kendall yesterday
And Brittney Scott
Unfortunately, I like to see the dark side of life. I like to explore the shadows and open closed doors. I can get specific, but I don’t want to. To give some insight into my darker times I will dance around the ideas of death and suicide and demons - both inner, and outer. I used to have the devil on speed dial; I would call him when I was afraid. Using him as my crutch for when I would purposely fall down and blind myself to the hands offering to lift me up.
I enjoy the dark tunnels I’ve wandered into where you can’t see the light. And when you can, sometimes I close my eyes. I whispered to the dead and always look over my shoulder at the person that’s never there. People joke about my evil streak so much that I think it’s true. Maybe it is. You’ll never know.
I have gotten lost in the dark seas, feeling like I will never return to solid ground. But I always do. I like wearing all black. I enjoy trips to the cemetery.
I am not pretending to be something I am not. I don’t care if it’s cool - in fact I prefer that it’s weird. I like horror films, and bats, and black cats. But I don’t walk under ladders.
The darkest time in my life is when I really scared my friends, and I scared myself. I don’t enjoy these times, but they happen. I used to be friends with my inner demons, allowing them to fulfill my life. But I prefer to work with them, not for them.
-written by scartidy-